gospel recording artist Pastor Donnie McClurkin of New York’s Perfecting
Faith Church, who confirmed he was dating singer Nicole C. Mullen last
summer, says he’s lonely and wants to have a wife but is afraid of
failing at marriage.
didn’t give any details on his relationship status during a recent
interview with CBN but explained that not having a wife to share his
life with has deteriorated from the feeling of just a “void” in his life
to a “chasm.”
“God literally caused me to accomplish everything
he purposed me to do — and more. I have a wonderful two children, love
my boy, love my girl. The wife aspect is the void. That’s the goal that
I’m looking to fulfill in this last chapter,” McClurkin, who is father
of a biological teenage son, Matthew, and adopted daughter, Michelle,
told CBN in the interview posted on the news site on Friday.
I followed the principles of the Kingdom, I would be fulfilled at 57
with no void. You get dressed by yourself and you fly by yourself and
you’re in your room by yourself. The only time when you’re with people
is on the concert stage or preaching on Sundays,” he said.
When asked what was holding him back from getting married, McClurkin said it was fear of failure.
tell you I’m frightened,” he said. “My fear factor has paralyzed me
from going forward in relationships and I think that this time I’m going
to wade through the fear in order to finish my life.”
continued: “I don’t want anything to fail. I hate failed relationships.
Fear is false evidence appearing real, and it appeared so real to me
that I denied myself that. Now at this stage and age I want to go for
it, I want to go for the golden ring.”
summer, both Mullen and McClurkin confirmed they were exploring marriage
in response to an impromptu announcement by Matt Crouch on TBN’s
“Praise the Lord” that they were getting married.
50-year-old twice divorced mother of three, clarified on Periscope that
while she and McClurkin were “definitely on the road to marriage,” they
are not engaged.
“There’s a protocol that both he and I want to
honor. So, are we officially engaged? No,” Mullen said. “Are we on the
road to marriage? Yes.”
McClurkin also told his friends and fans
on Periscope that they were trying to make sure everything was in order
for a successful relationship.
“I’ve fallen in love with Nicole
and we’re talking daily and any plans that we’re making have not been
officially established. I have never given her a ring. I didn’t propose
to her officially and there have been no official statements made at
all,” he said.
“What you saw on TBN was Matt Crouch letting
everybody know that I am in love and I am working toward marriage. The
truth of the matter is that my plan is to get married. But as I stated
on TBN, she and I both have agreed that the protocol of counseling is